Writers & Painters.

Authors often like to use painters as protagonists because they illustrate some of the issues and concerns that are relevant to all artists.
Sometimes these works reflect the reality of life for most painters but often authors use wildly and uncharacteristically successful painters as protagonists. These mythical artists are in huge demand and showing their work at the trendiest New York galleries. This bears a little resemblance to the life of most painters who struggle to simply keep working throughout their adult lives and managing to communicate their work to an audience.
One writer who has managed to use a painter as a an example of how it is to make paintings and present them to the wider world, is Roxanna Robinson. In her book Cost she describes the moment when the painter protagonist has just entered the gallery where her latest work is being shown. This excerpt effectively captures the experience of and artist, especially a female artist, on showing her work.

Excerpt from Cost by Roxanna Robinson:

“…her next thought was fear that she was not good enough for the gallery. The work was not what she had hoped it was never what she hoped. she could see she hadn’t done what she intended. Nor was she breaking new ground: she wasn’t combining video with cake or making sculpture out of garbage or using pigment made from Moose urine. She was only trying to work deeper into the presence of landscape, to find something interior that had not been revealed before. She was trying to create a certain set of relationships. She was trying to create a glowing mystical terrain. Why shouldn’t you work deeper into a tradition instead of Breaking out of it? Everyone worked within some tradition tradition even if it was the tradition of subversion, rebellion. What she wanted was her paintings to mean something, to have their own speaking presence. It was feeling, it was passion. Passion was what she wanted. Giottos tiny angels weeping and ringing their hands, quivering with grief like anguished hummingbirds. Julia had no interest in Art that jeered at passion.Irony was the suicide, Mode of Art,so parasitically dependent on the culture around it, so instantly obsolete as the culture Evolved. who cared about those ancient needle sharp skewers, so exquisite, so excruciating, so on the mark, so of the moment, so hopelessly outdated?. Passion would still drive the universe.

The paintings stood their ground, made their claims, said their pieces. What was it she had meant to do? Was this it? This role of coloured panels; these flat bright things hanging ahainst the plaster walls? Now looked at from a distance, it might be failure again. There had been something else, something quick and liquid, something deeper. That was what she had been trying for, she’d wanted to make a large bright place, larger, more radiant more frightening than here. but like it. These were only awkward, shorthand comments, incomplete versions of the larger thing. She had failed, as always; she’d comes nowhere near the mark. She would have to stand here and listen people offer kind words about work,a low drone of pity thudding through the false congratulations.

She could not change things. The pictures were done, they were up on the walls, they were presenting themselves to the world. She had failed maybe, but maybe not. Maybe what she was trying for could not be acheived.She had come as close, perhaps, as she could, as anyone could, given the limits, right now, of herself. All she could do was make things come close, as close as she could get them., to the real thing.

Actually, they were close to what she had wanted to say. There was the work to be judged, and there she was, accepting authoriship. What she hoped was that people would see her intentions, that she was striving for that bright, liquid, melting thing. but she was standing for that group. Now she felt full of alarm anticipation. And also full of pleasure: it was an honour to be a part of this dialogue about art & beauty & value. Everything was near-misses wasn’t it? Fail. Fail again. Fail better. Suddently she felt delirioiusly happy, inflated & bouyant with pleasure, simply to have the opportunity to participate in the great discourse.

There was nothing you could believe about your work from other people, nothing. Praise sounded false; criticism, mean. Everything was biased, I have course, there was nothing objective about responses to art. There were a few friends you could trust to tell you the truth, but it was only there‘s truths. Nothing to me you certain you are place in the world of heart heart heart. You had to find it yourself and then make it your home. You had to create your own balance your phone certain tea. No one else new what you were trying to do. You had to find your own faith. You have to stand up for it against the assaults of logic and fear and the articulations of The whole critical world. You had to close your eyes to everything else, repeating your personal creed, reminding your self of what you were doing, why you were doing it.”

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